In no particular order:

Finish my book (only 3 chapters left!)
Make an effort to make more friends
Write my uber vampire game (dark ages/victoriana/modern/gehenna)
Lose half a stone
Sort out my wardrobe (so many clothes I don't wear that I can't see the good stuff)
Let all the people I care about know about it
Stop holding onto the past which hurts me
Read all the unread books in my house before buying new ones (might be a dozen plus)
Make my baby as happy as possible
Learn to cook 3 things really well, not just 1 (lasagne)
Think about my career (well the fact I don't have one)
Strive to be the best wife I can

there is probably more, but me and spawn need bed....

I might be losing my job at work. Not being made redundant per se, but being labelled as 'surplus' and being moved to the work unemployment queue, where they pay you until you get a job, but you can't really turn anything suitable down. I'm not sure if you have to take a pay cut. I wouldn't be so worried except I'm on maternity leave for another 6 months so not going to look like a good prospect for the interviewers (you can have me but you have to wait), and I wanted to go back part time rather than pay someone else to look after my son the same amount as I am earning (you can have me, but I won't be able to put in a full working week). This means I have to get a decent job before I go back to work. No pressure. What annoys me is that people keep asking me that since I've had a baby, have I thought about staying home? Sure I've thought about it, then realised that the mortgage alone is half my husband's income so that really isn't going to fly. I wish I could afford to stay at home, but I can't.

That's all I can think about. Hope you have better things on your mind.

Today I have a random bunch of thoughts in my head: none of which are enough for an entire post so I am just going to write a couple of sentences about each and move on. That means you are going to have to pay attention at the back.

We have now introduced a 'Fridays or Bust' rule to gaming. That means that we are going to meet every friday at my house and play something, as long as 3 out of the 5 came make it. Depending on who shows up it might be Dark Heresy or A State or even Zombie Fluxx, but we've got enough games to cobble something together. Game On.

I've decided to post one and only one photo of me and the spawny bump. For most effect it will be in a couple of months time, hopefully when I am still smiling and before I become like a beached whale clothed in a tent.

Looks like I am going to be spending the next 8 weeks of my life working on an IT project out of Paisley. Good news because it is interesting and different work and being away from the office means the days go faster. Bad news because I don't drive and it is in the middle of nowhere, and my boss, who frequently drives me mad, is also on the project. Also the coffees are quite expensive. So far mood is positive with reservations.

Do you think we are our own worst enemies? I think we do it to ourselves and that's what really hurts.

Although I fully support the recent writer's strike (oh to be a card carrying writer and affected, if you know what I mean) I am glad it is over and that good tv is coming back. For months now we have been left with the dregs of shows like Big Brother, Flash Gordon and Army Wives (don't ask). Tonight we have a return of The Apprentice, for me more exciting not for the actual show than the headlines it generates afterwards. What I would really like to see is a behind the scenes look at the winner in their 100k job, what they are asked to do and see why none of them stick it out for very long.

It always amazes me the politics that insinuates itself into any work situation. I'm having 'interesting' and 'emotional' discussions with my line manager because of the daft performance rating system. My score (and therefore my pay increase) is calculated from a complicated equation made up of 26 seperate scores, yet there are only 4 categories of pay increases. You can probably see where this is going. For the second year going I am on the borderline of the highest pay score. Last year I missed out, this year I am not letting go without a fight. However I have been informed the decision is not about myself or my performance but more about what the department manager thinks about me, his ethos for handing out pay increases and how deciding either way will reflect on him. Just like internal recruitment, it is all about personality, no matter what the corporate blurb tries to tell you.